Reality

I hope to find myself here more often starting now. Facebook has become increasingly difficult, my tolerance for anyone who has shown support for the president is nill, I find my mood greatly affected each time I log on and read more, more, more. Perhaps I'll find my way there but at the moment I do not find kindness, empathy, compassion or understanding in my heart for the people who voted this man into office. I just don't. I know I have close friends and family who participated in that effort and man, I have a hard time handling that, I frankly don't even want to hear anyone's justification. I do see it as a failing on my part that I'm not more willing and open and like I said maybe I'll get there but at the moment all I see are gag orders, hiring freezes, pipelines and muzzles on free speech. And even closer to home I see my healthcare payments going up, but thank god my family has access to it, because anyone who isn't that fortunate is about to get royally screwed. I worry about our parents who are on or will be on Medicare, I hate to think about the difficulties in signing up, finding doctors, getting medicine, etc., not to mention the sacrifices that will be made when specialists are too expensive, prescriptions are to expensive... I worry about retirement funds and social security, and these things are just in my personal bubble. What about preexisting conditions? Seriously? We just say FU to those people? And don't get me started on Women's reproductive rights, do not even...I am seeing red even typing those words.

And so, if you're reading this and you feel affronted, I'm not sorry about that, this is my space and you've chosen to be here. In my space you won't find me placating and kind, you'll likely find me pissed off and trying to deal with the reality of someone completely screwing my children's world for many many years to come. What he is doing will not be undone quickly, we will deal with the ramifications for decades if not longer. My Ikey and Woodrow have to see that man as a leader? THAT MAN?!! My greatest triumph will be shielding them in every way shape and form possible from him and from his people and from his actions. To do that, I will likely use this space to vent, I will stay further away from Facebook, I will take control of the downward spin and I will not live inside of a bad mood, I'll do better for them.

Here's my biggest dude. We should put him in the Oval Office.
At least his tantrums would be age appropriate.